All negatives

All the home pregnancy tests I have taken have been negative so far, but that could be because I took them too eearly. My suggested test date is the 27th of September. Today is the 23rd. I can't wait that long. I will test again in the morning, if not this afternoon. I really jsut want to know.

I know taht I will be more crushed than all the months we tried, just because everything looks so perfect on paper. ANd, it would have been a miracle.

I told Pat this monring what was going on, and feel relieved that he was/is so supportive. I knew he would be, but I didn't want him to freak out and wonder how the hell we were going to have two and how we'd pay for it and (and I actually said this to him) that I had tricked him somehow. It was an honest mistake and I wouldn't ahve known that I ovulated that day until at least 3 days later.

My God, there are so many spelling errors in this post. I hope it's because of pregnancy brain. :)