Well, this sucks

I can't believe that God would torture me like this. I got my period 3 weeks ago (April 19) and it's back again. On one hand it's great to know that I can still get pregnant. On the other hand, seriously, again????? Already????? Cuz, yeah, I must really enjoy the water weight I have. Nothing ever fits right as it is, and then throw that on top with killer cramps? How the hell am I supposed to work my ars off if I can't go to the gym. (Normally I would go, but it's really rough today. Aren't you glad you picked today to read??)

So, the weight loss has stalled, and I am going to have to (once again) modify my calorie intake. Unfortunately, all I wanted for breakfast this am was BK's breakfast muffin and hash browns. I caved. I got them and ate them. They were good, but the whole morning (after I ate them) I was beating myself up about it. I am trying to get my blood sugar under control, and the worst part of the day for me is morning, but then I think in 2 1/2 weeks, I won't be driving anywhere near a fast food place in the morning, so I won't eat there anymore.

I am looking forward to this summer, since I will have no excuse for not working out 5 days a week. There's no way I can honestly say that I am too tired from working, since school gets out in 12 school days!!!!! I want to go first thing in the morning, and then take Nathaniel to his swim class. I have to send in the paperwork for that, but I have to wait for the money to pay for it. Another great way to exercise. I want to be really active this summer, so that when I get pregnant, and people start asking about it before I am ready to tell, I can just say that I am tired from working all day or I just need to get back to the gym. I will succeed!!!!