Starting the journey

So, my hubby and I have decided that we are going to try to have another child. We'll start trying after July, when the stink-bug is 13 months old. I can't weight, er, wait. Yeah, that's the one problem we're going to have. I weigh too much. I want so very badly to lose about 40 pounds before we conceive again. I know I can do it. I go to the gym 3 times a week already, but I am willing to step it up to 5 days. I can eat better than I do, and I know that's a large part of why I can lose weight but not keep it off. I am also an emotional eater. Anybody with me on that? Yeah, I know. It's easy to admit but so hard to change. But that's what this blog is about. Me putting down the fork and knife (fingers, etc) and filling myself not with food, but with strength.

I still plan to eat, cuz there's just no way I could give up french fries or cheese, but just not as often. I am trying to convvince the hubs that he can do it too, if not for his sake, then for N's sake. Do we really want him to have the same problems that we have? Heck no! So, for now we will just start off with the weight. I currently weigh 271 pounds, the same I weighed the day I gave birth. I had dropped all the baby weight by 2 weeks post-partum. Granted it was only 25 pounds, but how good does it feel to say you lost 25 pounds in 2 weeks???

Within 4 months of his birth, I had gained it all back plus a little more. I gave every excise I could think of- exhaustion. He was colicky and crap food was easier to eat. I ate at 3 am at least twice a week because I felt like I needed energy to keep up with a crying baby. But, all the BS has to stop.

I am taking control of my life and my weight once and for all. I will not sit on the couch watching "The Biggest Loser" season after season and wonder why I can't have a weight loss like theirs (It's already obvious, isn't it? I can't work out 10+ hours a day). Excuse? Maybe, but I can work out for one hour each day.

I think the real kick in the pants that I need came yesterday afternoon. I went to walk up the stairs with N to get to our apartment, and my knees hurt. They have been hurting going down the stairs every once in a while for the past week, but never going up. Seriously, I have to change this. I can't move just because I'm fat, right?

I hope there are some people out there who would like to join me on this journey. I'd like to think I am not alone.

Good health to you all.